wow, talk about unworthy...

God has been so good the past few days. its a wonder what can happen if you pray for him to open your eyes to his ways and stop trying to do everything yourself. it was hard and took me forever to really get a handle on. i mean, i still dont think i do it well but its paying of. God is so present here right now. i just keep seeing him work and provide, and he is doing it in a way that is painfully obvious that we do not have any part in causing it. he is just gracious enough to let us watch and lend a helping hand here and there. first of all despite my laziness and apathy, which tends to creep in when i get overwhelmed and realize that i cant handle all the stuff going on in my life (if i cant do it all, im just gonna stop trying to do anything... its easier that way) God has been faithful. I didnt prepare the way i normally feel led to for bible study the other night. truth be told i barely had had a decent time with the lord much less dug into a lesson for others. I was feeling a little convicted about it. i went to my discipleship meeting with kacy, and it was so refreshing. i love being able to read Gods word and get perspective from someone else. it took me awhile to warm up to the idea, and i am probably not yet being entirely vulnerable to the experience but it is worth it. after our talk she thought it would be good to try and do some solarium. i loved this idea and hated it at the same time. I have come to have a great passion for initiative evangelism. and the fact that i even was able to say that should give a hint to how far i have come. it is very vital in our faith, along with the other types of evangelism. having said that, i tend to like to encourage others to do it while still being completely uncomfortable with doing it myself. if i had my way i would sit in the background and serve or pray for all the others who are out there talking to people. we walked around looking for the right person to start with, and after some encounters where we felt that the spirit was not leading we sat down with a girl who was very receptive to what we were trying to do. it was perfect, she had just broken up with her boyfriend and was seeking some community and healthy relationships. also she had been raised as an atheist but had been desiring to go to church and find out more about what having a relationship with God looks like. How often does that happen?!?!?! it was totally the holy spirit preparing a time and place for us. we didnt present the gospel because neither of us are very comfortable with doing that on the first encounter, also we didnt feel God leading. but this girl who was searching is willing to find out more! oh my, GOd is good!!!

and even more, kacy gave ashley and i a name of a girl interested in coming to a bible study in stevenson. if it had been me i wouldnt have stopped right then and there to call her, i would have waited until a more convenient time. but ashley is faithful and called her right away, and she came!!! we didnt realize that she had no background besides being culturally catholic. and she was actively seeking out a biblestudy. !!! she didnt even own a bible. i felt bad because i dont think she understood what we were talking about at first and i didnt want her to get turned off, like we were cultish or something. but thats ridiculous bc we cant be ashamed of the truth of God. his words will speak for themselves and he will open her heart to what she needs to hear. but angela and ashley were faithful enough to share the KGP with her right on the spot and even though she didnt make a decision right away, she heard the truth! we did what God had us to do and its in his hands now. And he is faithful to deliver her to himself with out anymore help from us. he doesnt need us, but he lets us help! wow!!!! he is moving on this campus.

and then this morning i started a random conversation with a man i found to be a believer who wants to get plugged in with a ministry. god is amazing! even if nothing comes of these encounters God is awesome. he is teaching me more and more to be willing and available to him. I cant wait to see what he will continue to do. I hope he starts a revival on this campus and brings all to HIm. How amazing would that be! and he can!!!! i have seen what he can do if his people are faithful... but also what he can do without a bit of help from us because he is all powerful! :):)